Im happy but there is a heavy feeling of sadness in my heart that I just can't remove. Why am I like this?

In the absence of a should, I was free to be as I am.

I had run out of hope.

Your job is not to be the manager of your life, but the one who discovers yourself fully.

Human-sized Labubu doll sells for more than $150,000 - BBC

You are the masterpiece you came here to discover.

You are like me, then.

Needless to say, my failed attempts to fix my sadness simply brought me more pain and suffering.

What would explain Trump blaming Ukraine for starting the war with Russia?

And the sadness?

But unlike before, there is no more resistance to the sadness.

The sadness was still there.

Why do I feel so down and not happy anymore? I also feel really tired and non-motivated. Is that normal for someone to feel that way?

I was tired of trying and failing.

It’s the most beautiful and liberating thing in the world.

It’s here now, writing to you.

Orlando Bloom Reportedly Said What Everyone Else Was Thinking About Katy Perry’s Blue Origin Flight - Yahoo

Most people that know me would probably describe me as a social, happy, and somewhat quirky person with a twisted sense of humor.

Without resistance, sadness has a sense of beauty and depth I cannot find otherwise in life.

When I stopped trying to force myself to be something I am not, I gave myself the freedom of being who I am.

Five differences between Pilates and yoga you need to know before deciding which is right for you, according to a certified teacher - Fit&Well

But no matter what I read or practiced, I could never make the sadness budge for longer than a few fleeting moments - and even then, it was likely due to me being distracted from the sensation of sadness rather than anything actually shifting.

It’s difficult to put into words exactly what caused what, but to the best of my ability to describe it, I felt as if my will to keep fighting was beaten right out of me.

So I finally threw my hands up and said something to the tune of “fuck it, since I can't seem to change, I’ll just be whatever I am then.”

Walmart workers are sharing photos of price hikes of 38% or more — and some prices are up at Target too - Business Insider

So if you are sad - like me - then be sad.

This interpretation lead me on a path of self improvement, to fix what I considered to be “wrong” with myself.

It’s impossible to overstate the freedom and peace I discovered, and I realized the only one who had been keeping those from me was… me and my imagined standards and expectations for how I had imagined I should be.

How do military families balance personal political views with respect for civilian leadership?

It wasn’t until about 10 years ago that I finally fell out of that ferris wheel of trying and failing to fix myself.

Now, this may sound like a story of failure and giving up, but it’s actually a story of liberation.

What most people don’t know unless they’ve looked more closely is that there is also an element of deep, profound sadness that has always been with me since as long as I can remember.

Is it true or false that Andrew Tate announced that he is running for prime minister of the UK under a new political party called 'BRUV' or something like that?

I was tired of fighting.

Be who you already are.

It’s still here.

Can we see your heels?

For much of my adult life, I interpreted this sadness as something being wrong - with either myself or my life in general.

What I am trying to say is that when you stop trying to change yourself into something you are not, you give yourself the gift of discovering yourself as you already are.